Chronic Tonic at VOTS-Holiday Stress Edition

Two weeks to go and I'm full of the spirit...



I don't know about anybody else, but I find this time of year stressful, I always have, even before I had kids, kids who want stuff, stuff I can't afford, stuff that's now a collector's item, stuff he's seen on YouTube...get off that damn computer, Dan! Where was I? Oh, yes--stress. Rather than a full on Festivus style airing of the grievances, I thought I'd throw out a small pre-Yule list of petty annoyances. Just a small pressure release valve sort of thing. It won't change anything, and some of them are totally trivial, but I'll feel better~

Dad, did it ever occur to you that when you downsize the tree that the angel you used on the old tree is going to look freakishly large on the new one? No, she's fully a third of the size of the tree, it's fine, really. (rolls eyes)

Damn you, CBS! I watch exactly two network shows and you had to move one of them to Sundays at ten. Did I say ten? Oh, well during football season that could mean anywhere from ten to who the hell knows. Oh, some weeks you put it on the schedule at ten-thirty? That fixed exactly nothing, my DVR still doesn't know run over for twenty more minutes. I understood and was not unhappy with quick and merciful cancelation that resulted for CSI Miami from this same time slot shift last year, but The Mentalist? Nay! Nay! Put it back, you bastards!

Look, let's just plan the Christmas dinner as we always enjoyed it for all of these years and not try to cater it in some way to what Mom may or may not eat. We saw how that worked out at Thanksgiving, didn't we? She'll decide she's hated lima beans her entire life right at the table. Why are we even talking about this? We'll just heat up some peas and have them on hand, it'll be fine.

If I never hear another retail chain bastardize a Christmas tune for their commercial it will be too soon. Not as egregious of an offense as bastardizing a good rock or pop tune, but still. Pay somebody to write your ass a jingle, it's not you're economizing so you can pay your workers a living wage or anything silly like that.

Stop pressuring me to take joy in certain seasonal activities. You see the carolers on the street and run to turn on your porch light and ready the cookies. Me? I say, 'Oh, shit! Dim the lights and get in the dining room, there's carolers on the street!" I just can't stand at the front door smiling and nodding approvingly while a group of strangers sings Oh Here We Come A Wassailing and they are not getting any of my cookies.

And while we're on the subject of joy, just because my joy doesn't resemble yours in any way don't assume that I'm not joyful, trust me, I am. It's just that I find my joy in little bursts here and there throughout my day, Holiday season or not. You want to see more joy? Stop all the pressure and I'll stop stressing and that will go a long way towards more joy. That and a local newscaster flubbing live on the air. Just be in the room with me when one of them says something like, " a local yumber lard" and you will see a person filled with glee~






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oh damn!

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the tinnitus doesn't necessarily last all day nor the aural fullness. Read the pieces I wrote for kosability on living with menieres, there are lots of good links.

Was the vertigo rotational (are you literally standing still and the room rotating around you) or positional (like you are on a ship at sea)? How long did it last? Did you drop to the floor (drop vertigo) or were you able to remain sitting or standing? Write me, I can offer some advice. But have a stash of pills for seasickness (OTC) with meclizine in it; you do not need a script.

It may just be BPPV  (Benign Paroxysmal Positional Vertigo); but if you have tinnitus and the aural fullness it is probably menieres. First of all, don't freak! There are many gradiations of menieres and some people can control with diet (cut out salt, booze, tobacco, coffee for a bit). write me and we can talk!!!

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it freaked me cuz it had never happened before...

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the full attack happened in the middle of the night when i got up to go potty. i got out of bed and i thought i was gonna fall down. i was still half asleep and i remember thinking 'man, i'm gonna fall off the toilet'. it was that bad. thank gawd i just had to make oit back to the bed.

if it had been during the day, i would've probably dropped - i could barely make it back to bed - and i would've been very nauseous... the spinning was out of this world. the world was spinning and i couldn't walk.

i do have dramamine at home now.

and yeah, i used to get really motion sick as a kid. and i've alwasy had a bit of tinnitus, but it only lasts a minute when it happens so it's never really bothered me. same with the murky hearing. very short duration and so doesn't really bother much. but the vertigo? man, i didn't even know what it was called til i mayo clinicked dizziness and realized that it was vertigo... damn - it scared the crap outta me... i kept thinking, if i'm like this when i wake up in the morning, i'm not going to be able to function at all, even on a minimal level...

hoping to quit smoking this weekend. cut down already but have been aiming at quitting. i don't drink much either, maybe 2 or 3 times a week at most, and a couple beers or a glass of wine then. and i hadn't drank for a few days when i had the attack. i'll send you an email. i could use some tip for prevention as well as things to do if/when it happens again...

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I always had what people call vertigo

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things spinning due to being up at a height. I actually went to a church in Florence which had a mosaic as a spiral and the ground just went out. I thought that I knew vertigo until I started having drop vertigo ...  I couldn't stand on my feet or stay in the chair, the ground just went out, my eyes spiralled ... it was really really strange and these happened without warning.

After 7-8 of these, I actually started getting warning, ears stuffed up, lots of tinnitus (my old tinnitus was nothing compared to what I have now ... it is ramped up to the nth degree, it is qualitatively different ... sometimes low tones, sometimes high tones (it depends on where the fluid is accumulation according to my ent) lasts for hours sometimes, days if it is really bad. The sock stuffed in the ear is annoying. But the vertigo is a nightmare ... you have no control at all which makes me really really stressed. The long attacks (4 hours plus) had gone away for 9 months and now they are back again and I am so stressed out and so depressed it is not funny. I have been a mess and am waiting for them to start over again; I am just simply hysterical.

Sounds like a positional attack to me; if it was rotational you could not have made it to the bathroom ... those on literally don''t move and maybe, just maybe, I can stay in my chair attacks. 

Prevention works iff you do not have a strong version; my friend has only had 1 attack in his life; I have lost count. Is it in one ear or two? if it is bilateral, I do not know what can be done except to take the antivert. they give me betahistine here, but it is not prescribed in the US and I don't know if it works. I take thorazine (5mg) when I get an attack; it works better for positional rather than rotational attacks and I think the same would hold for the antivert. But, start reducing salt consumption asap; you are not drinking heavily which is good as that makes it worse. I had no effect from the coffee except on the tinnitus; it makes it worse, but does not impact on the vertigo. Someone suggested using ginger (sailors used it) ... ginger tea, etc. to help with the nausea and the vertigo. My hearing has not returned, if yours comes back, it may not be menieres, it may be a related illness; I have been hoping that the ear dies to end the vertigo. Write me. 

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mine is both ears...

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always had the minor tinnitus and stuffy ears... started having heights probs in my late 20s early 30s, when my allergies manifested as well.

none of it bothered me much, but this vertigo stuff - this is bad. gawd i hope i don't have another. that would be a blessing. if i do have another, i will go to the doc... as for now, i will start cutting salt, and hopefully tobacco. i don't drink coffee, and rarely even drink tea. i don't drink alcohol much, so i prob won't cut that much cuz there's not much to cut.

dear gawd, i'm just glad this first one was in the middle of the night and not at work.... :o

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mine started in the left and is moving to the right

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when you had the attack, did you notice which ear it was in? did one ear feel really congested after the attack? If it is both ears, if it is already bilateral, you really need to see a doctor; the surgery helped but I was having these things 3 times a week.

I am hoping that you do not have another attack; maybe it is a one-off (fingers crossed and actually praying to non-existent gods for that for you) ... sending hugs!!

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did not notice any hearing change in my ears...

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but i went from totally asleep to being mostly asleep having to use the potty, so it may not have registered. i did not notice any difference in my ears later that day, in spite of having that motion sick headachey feeling...

thanks NYbe! i am hoping too that it's one and done, but if it does happen again, i will paying a lot more attention to what is going on with my ears and head. this one really took me by surprise.

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